Hurt children can experience restoration and healing, but the parent must count the cost before running the race
“Adoption is not charity, it’s war.”-Russel Moore via blog
“For we are not wrestling with flesh and blood [contending only with physical opponents], but against the despotisms, against the powers, against[the master spirits who are] the world rulers of this present darkness, against the spirit forces of wickedness in the heavenly (supernatural spheres),” Ephesians 6:12
If you contend with flesh and blood, you will only make the wound fester in the child. The wound will spread like leprosy onto you. I have been a leper, skin hanging, should marred and scarred from the responses I have given to the child in battle that should have been fought in the spirit. I fought hand to hand combat with the wounded child instead of unsheathing my sword, the Word of God and dispelling demons.
I journal; I forgot momentarily to fight the good fight and instead fight ugly (as Beth Moore says!)
I am in a pit of bitterness and smashed hopes and dreams. I retreat. I freeze. I collapse. I give up and call it strength.
My story is bent right now, Lord. I am calling evil good and good evil. I have so much bitterness in my heart that I don’t have room for the goodness I pray for. His attitude and anger fill me with the urge to run away and abandon him as he has been abandoned before. I am a BENT story Lord.
Empty me of this putrid puke, the blackness that oozes out of my mouth which proceeds from my heart. I am wrong. My pride misdirects me. It leads me astray and I follow. I cannot change him. I cannot change me. I am a sinner with a blackened soul. Please forgive me. Cleanse me. Rinse me. Fill me with your presence. I need you.
You are Good
You are Just
You are the heart Changer
You are the wound Healer
The soul Cleanser
I am NOT. Empty me of this stench so I can be filled with YOU.
Once again I dust myself off, put on my armor (Ephesians 6:13) and advance in the war for my children’s souls. Apologize. Regroup.
“If what’s behind this isn’t crucified, war-fighting eye-open commitment, you are going to end up with a child who is twice orphaned.” – Russell Moore
Part III on Friday!