Last week, I talked about eating the fat. And then, as per usual, came the test. Ever notice that when you set your mind to do something, you are immediately tested? As if to say, is this seed in fertile ground? Are you going to grow or dry up and blow away?
The growth of a seed begins in the dark. An idea doesn’t burst forth into fruition without some work behind closed doors. A seed doesn’t produce a harvest unless it is buried deep in the dark soil and then watered regularly.
I sometimes forget to water and then my seed dries up. I get too busy some mornings to bask in the Son. Then my thoughts turn down the negative path.
Which is the scarier? The trench of negativity I have dug around this mountain that once was a molehill? Or climbing up and out and seeing things differently? Change is scary. Staying the same is scarier.
I’m a liar. All the way, a liar. I pretend. A pretender. Pretending I can do it all on my own. I can’t. I make my own plans. They keep me up at night. My brain buzzing with plans. And I am restless.
Who is among you who [reverently] fears the Lord, who obeys the voice of His Servant, yet who walks in darkness and deep trouble and has no shining splendor [in his heart]? Let him rely on, trust in, and be confident in the name of the Lord, and let him lean upon and be supported by his God.
Behold, all you [enemies of your own selves] who attempt to kindle your own fires [and work out your own plans of salvation], who surround and gird yourselves with momentary sparks, darts, and firebrands that you set aflame!—walk by the light of your self-made fire and of the sparks that you have kindled [for yourself, if you will]! But this shall you have from My hand: you shall lie down in grief and in torment- Isaiah 50:10, 11
Until. I return to the one I can trust in. Some trust in chariots, some in horses, I return to the one, the I AM. I can trust in Him. I must stop trying to change my circumstances and let Him change me in the midst of the circumstances.
Arise [from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept you—rise to a new life]! Shine (be radiant with the glory of the Lord), for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you Isaiah 60:1
Linking up with Kristin Hill Taylor for Three Word Wednesday!